I CAN BELIEVE 10 DAYS HAVE PASSED!

it feels like a small week.

Im still doing pcp, but it has been a bumpy ride.

I had my exam, and the days before stayed up 28 hours without no sleep.

I have not been able to do all the exercises, But I have not given up.

I am seeing massive changes on my body from pcp, things are def on the good side, so that motivates me. The vanity motivates me.

So even though I have not been able to be superstrict on everything I have nailed the diet at least. I will do all that I can to give these last weeks the effort they deserve, as I really like what im seeing .

I think I will keep a pcp light routine after its all done. Maybe 3-4 times a week just to keep things going.

ahh yes

otherwise I found that jumping rope with my eyes closed, makes me jump faster and better technically...sort of strange

blæh

Things have not been so easy....

Life has overwhelmed me, and knocked my mind into coma.

I skipped 2 workoutdays, and it's depressing me.

Why does everything have to happen at the same time?

It feels like my body is filled with cement, and every move feels like a huge effort.

Just wanting to stare at the wall, and pretend I'm not here.

Good things have happened, but the changes that are to be made are transistions that take energy.

Changes:

1. Im moving in 2.5 weeks, this was decided 2 weeks ago as me and my room mate dont get along towell. So I decided to move, as a better option came up in the same building.

2. trying to make my roommate pay their bills, is not easy......

3.getting a new job, and all the stuff that happens around that.

4. Having my exams and my final assignment at the same time, being way overdue on starting

them and really being stressed out about it.

5. feeling pretty angsty, scared, pathetic. and mildly depressed.

6. applying for a postproduction job, on top of this again (2nd interview)

7. really wondering if I have what it takes to become a good photographer, as I really just want to sleep all day long. When I look at my previous stuff I see potential, but when things are tough i just want to give up.

Did my workout today, just did it!

Have been doing my diet as usual, and made a pretty nice tomato puree sauce to go with pasta.

Small stuff like that makes me happy . Some of the sets just seem crazy long, and sometimes have too take a two second break in the middle of them to complete. The jumprope routine is getting easier, and im actually feeling like im getting the hold on the set practice. i did 1935 jumps today alltogether, that felt pretty cool .

Also tried to find nice uplifting audiobooks (especially about people who start their own businesses or projects, and suceed at it!) I really liked Julia Child's Biography, although its about all that nice food one can not eat at the moment.

I just found it nice to hear her story about not giving up on creating the cookbook of her dreams (took her 10+ years). If any of you guys have any suggestions on any good uplifting audiobooks, they are greatly appreciated.

Oh and Im a sucker for anything old lady stuff like traveling memoirs, around europe, italy and france.

(This time just isnt right for Poe or Dostoyevsky) Oh and no Charlene Harris, her books are imho badly written, and boring(yadda yadda vampire, blood, death, a bit fighting, and a bunch of horny bloodsuckers..on constant repeat)

So quality tips please, and thank you in advance.

I guess I will just have to accnowledge my failures(and victories) this past week, and just try harder this week.

Im just so looking forward to see that this month ends, getting away from this apartment that is dirty and falling apart, where nothing works and is just a dump with paper walls.

Hearing your housemate fornicate/ or vice versa does get pretty boring after a while.

Day 51

Just got my new rubberbands to start the new week, and its really made my motivation step up a notch. It really helps having the proper equipment to do the job, but at the same time its also a bit mortifying when you discover that the old equipment really did not do its job.

Who would have thought buying some simple workoutbands would be so difficult. Amazon.com

was not very helpful, and the selection in the stores where I live is pretty no exsistant.

I finally found a internetstore that would send them to me, and now they are here.

On the otherhand here is an update picture. I don't feel as if the picture reflects the changes as well as reality.Things are defiantly more toned than what they where 50 days ago. I lost some fat around the stomach, and lost 2 kg so down to 59.8 at the moment. Really hoping that the fat on my inner thighs will soon evaporate, Ive hated that fat since I was 14,

I also feel a lot more confident and happy with myself , loving the 360 mirrors in the changing rooms when buying new clothes.

Discovered a while ago that I hate jumping rope with shoes on, but its pretty damn painful when you smack your toes with the rope. So tada, invented a new pair of socks...you could call it a prototype. The gaffertape is a really nice side effect of having photography as your chosen profession. A bad side effect is the instinct to take the above picture straight into photoshop

and liquify it straight to hell.