oh no

So i have not updated for a while (as usual).

I have been completly stressed out with new job, school and moving, so my ability to do pcp has been dwindeling.

At the moment im also without internet.

As of said before , im very happy with the results I have seen so far, and I know they would have been even more if I had been able to stick to it theese last weeks.

So Im back on the plan today, just to finish and do the last two weeks.

I have learned to listen to my body more, and I see that it needs a lot more nutrition, than what I have been able to give it in the past.

This wont be the last time I do pcp, Im actually thinking of making it into a yearly ritual.

I CAN BELIEVE 10 DAYS HAVE PASSED!

it feels like a small week.

Im still doing pcp, but it has been a bumpy ride.

I had my exam, and the days before stayed up 28 hours without no sleep.

I have not been able to do all the exercises, But I have not given up.

I am seeing massive changes on my body from pcp, things are def on the good side, so that motivates me. The vanity motivates me.

So even though I have not been able to be superstrict on everything I have nailed the diet at least. I will do all that I can to give these last weeks the effort they deserve, as I really like what im seeing .

I think I will keep a pcp light routine after its all done. Maybe 3-4 times a week just to keep things going.

ahh yes

otherwise I found that jumping rope with my eyes closed, makes me jump faster and better technically...sort of strange

blæh

Things have not been so easy....

Life has overwhelmed me, and knocked my mind into coma.

I skipped 2 workoutdays, and it's depressing me.

Why does everything have to happen at the same time?

It feels like my body is filled with cement, and every move feels like a huge effort.

Just wanting to stare at the wall, and pretend I'm not here.

Good things have happened, but the changes that are to be made are transistions that take energy.

Changes:

1. Im moving in 2.5 weeks, this was decided 2 weeks ago as me and my room mate dont get along towell. So I decided to move, as a better option came up in the same building.

2. trying to make my roommate pay their bills, is not easy......

3.getting a new job, and all the stuff that happens around that.

4. Having my exams and my final assignment at the same time, being way overdue on starting

them and really being stressed out about it.

5. feeling pretty angsty, scared, pathetic. and mildly depressed.

6. applying for a postproduction job, on top of this again (2nd interview)

7. really wondering if I have what it takes to become a good photographer, as I really just want to sleep all day long. When I look at my previous stuff I see potential, but when things are tough i just want to give up.

Did my workout today, just did it!

Have been doing my diet as usual, and made a pretty nice tomato puree sauce to go with pasta.

Small stuff like that makes me happy . Some of the sets just seem crazy long, and sometimes have too take a two second break in the middle of them to complete. The jumprope routine is getting easier, and im actually feeling like im getting the hold on the set practice. i did 1935 jumps today alltogether, that felt pretty cool .

Also tried to find nice uplifting audiobooks (especially about people who start their own businesses or projects, and suceed at it!) I really liked Julia Child's Biography, although its about all that nice food one can not eat at the moment.

I just found it nice to hear her story about not giving up on creating the cookbook of her dreams (took her 10+ years). If any of you guys have any suggestions on any good uplifting audiobooks, they are greatly appreciated.

Oh and Im a sucker for anything old lady stuff like traveling memoirs, around europe, italy and france.

(This time just isnt right for Poe or Dostoyevsky) Oh and no Charlene Harris, her books are imho badly written, and boring(yadda yadda vampire, blood, death, a bit fighting, and a bunch of horny bloodsuckers..on constant repeat)

So quality tips please, and thank you in advance.

I guess I will just have to accnowledge my failures(and victories) this past week, and just try harder this week.

Im just so looking forward to see that this month ends, getting away from this apartment that is dirty and falling apart, where nothing works and is just a dump with paper walls.

Hearing your housemate fornicate/ or vice versa does get pretty boring after a while.

Day 51

Just got my new rubberbands to start the new week, and its really made my motivation step up a notch. It really helps having the proper equipment to do the job, but at the same time its also a bit mortifying when you discover that the old equipment really did not do its job.

Who would have thought buying some simple workoutbands would be so difficult. Amazon.com

was not very helpful, and the selection in the stores where I live is pretty no exsistant.

I finally found a internetstore that would send them to me, and now they are here.

On the otherhand here is an update picture. I don't feel as if the picture reflects the changes as well as reality.Things are defiantly more toned than what they where 50 days ago. I lost some fat around the stomach, and lost 2 kg so down to 59.8 at the moment. Really hoping that the fat on my inner thighs will soon evaporate, Ive hated that fat since I was 14,

I also feel a lot more confident and happy with myself , loving the 360 mirrors in the changing rooms when buying new clothes.

Discovered a while ago that I hate jumping rope with shoes on, but its pretty damn painful when you smack your toes with the rope. So tada, invented a new pair of socks...you could call it a prototype. The gaffertape is a really nice side effect of having photography as your chosen profession. A bad side effect is the instinct to take the above picture straight into photoshop

and liquify it straight to hell.

OK

so its been a while since last time I posted.

But I have got good news. Since last time, i feel like I have kicked my bad habits.

Dont have the same crazy craving for sugar anymore as I use to. FINALLY!

Also seems like I'm gaining control over the food plan. It does take a little while to figure out

what to bring a food for an 8 hour school day.

I have kept all doing all the exercises, only missed one day.

What happened was: was feeling pretty exhausted, so I did my jumpropes and tried to do the first exercise, but my body just would not agree with me. Otherwise thing have gone pretty smoothly. trying to observe my body, so that it is using the right mucles.

Ive been sticking to the program and I also feel like I am getting some results, but they are kind of slow. Not really lost much weight, but I´m thinking this might be because I have also gained a fair chunk of musclemass. So the body is looking better, but the fat has not yet left the building (or so it looks like). Before I weighed 62kg now im 59.5, so 1 1/2 kg. I´m hoping this will change soon. Maybe I should cut out all those avocados.

My exams are on, and it also starting to feel a bit challenging to get everything done, but I just try to push everything in.

Still in the game :)

B00BZ

OMG

My boobs have gotten bigger, and they hang better on my frame then they used to.

i think the chestexercises are the ones to thank for this.

Where there is an end there is a beginning.

Long time now since i posted something.

this week has been strange, both good and bad.

Im starting to get tired of my diet, and found myself being uninspired and bored.

Bad thing really, becouse it makes bad habits sneek up on you. Yea I have been a naughty

girl. So.. Father I have sinned. I ate a bowl of sugared popcorn, and binged in on the sweet stuff.

Gluttony,lust and frenzy.

That will be 10 sets of 20 lunges for you..you naughty girl.

*runs away screaming. Climbs up into the norwegian mountains, never to be seen again*

I also skipped two workout days, and trying to make amends I skipped last weeks "rest day".

I found a sport store that I can order the equipment that I need, as amazon.com does not want to sell me any rubber bands of any sort. The one I have now is to short, so some of the excersises are difficult to do. Really happy to see that they are not in a bad price range either.

Also since i found myself getting a bit unotivated, decided to buy one of those fancy scales, but neither amazon.com or co.uk wants to sell me any(becouse i live in norway, but sweden is for some reason ok). Thing is that a fancy weight costs around 81 to 129 dollars, and compared to the ones on amazon its pretty underwhelming. YA know if im gonna invest in some fancy bodyscanner, I want all the bells and whistles .

Probably dont need one, but i have always been curious about the body fat thing.

So to the skipping rope. We have about 5 different sport shop companys in this country, and they carry all the same stuff. I can only get hold of stayathomemom brand casall and nike. I have the nike one and it tangles to easily, so i trip all the time.

But these have all mostly been fixed, since i found this online store in norway.

I also found one fancy omron weight ridiculously priced on a webpage similar to craiglist, they had orderd quite a large number of them. Sounded a bit to good to be true, so googled their company name and they look decent.

So if you dont hear from me in two weeks time, what probably has happened is I have been put in a crate shipped of to China and forced to sell my kidney.

Now Im trying to review this week, and figure out how next week can be more fluent.

On a more personal note, a friend of mine hanged himself , leaving his 1 year old kid and wife behind. pretty sad stuff. He was a truly unique guy, had been living on and of the streets , had managed to get his life in order, pursued his photography and didnt give a f*** about what other people thought about it. And then he just killed himself.

He was also an actor and script writer

he plays the lead role in a movie called lullaby written with Margareth Olin.

the movie can be found here :

http://www.dagbladet.no/kultur/2006/12/22/486904.html

It's similar to the likes of christiane f, movies about teenagers struggling with drugs and prostitution. Not a happy go lucky movie but still one of the more interesting ones on the topic.