oh no

So i have not updated for a while (as usual).

I have been completly stressed out with new job, school and moving, so my ability to do pcp has been dwindeling.

At the moment im also without internet.

As of said before , im very happy with the results I have seen so far, and I know they would have been even more if I had been able to stick to it theese last weeks.

So Im back on the plan today, just to finish and do the last two weeks.

I have learned to listen to my body more, and I see that it needs a lot more nutrition, than what I have been able to give it in the past.

This wont be the last time I do pcp, Im actually thinking of making it into a yearly ritual.

I CAN BELIEVE 10 DAYS HAVE PASSED!

it feels like a small week.

Im still doing pcp, but it has been a bumpy ride.

I had my exam, and the days before stayed up 28 hours without no sleep.

I have not been able to do all the exercises, But I have not given up.

I am seeing massive changes on my body from pcp, things are def on the good side, so that motivates me. The vanity motivates me.

So even though I have not been able to be superstrict on everything I have nailed the diet at least. I will do all that I can to give these last weeks the effort they deserve, as I really like what im seeing .

I think I will keep a pcp light routine after its all done. Maybe 3-4 times a week just to keep things going.

ahh yes

otherwise I found that jumping rope with my eyes closed, makes me jump faster and better technically...sort of strange

blæh

Things have not been so easy....

Life has overwhelmed me, and knocked my mind into coma.

I skipped 2 workoutdays, and it's depressing me.

Why does everything have to happen at the same time?

It feels like my body is filled with cement, and every move feels like a huge effort.

Just wanting to stare at the wall, and pretend I'm not here.

Good things have happened, but the changes that are to be made are transistions that take energy.

Changes:

1. Im moving in 2.5 weeks, this was decided 2 weeks ago as me and my room mate dont get along towell. So I decided to move, as a better option came up in the same building.

2. trying to make my roommate pay their bills, is not easy......

3.getting a new job, and all the stuff that happens around that.

4. Having my exams and my final assignment at the same time, being way overdue on starting

them and really being stressed out about it.

5. feeling pretty angsty, scared, pathetic. and mildly depressed.

6. applying for a postproduction job, on top of this again (2nd interview)

7. really wondering if I have what it takes to become a good photographer, as I really just want to sleep all day long. When I look at my previous stuff I see potential, but when things are tough i just want to give up.

Did my workout today, just did it!

Have been doing my diet as usual, and made a pretty nice tomato puree sauce to go with pasta.

Small stuff like that makes me happy . Some of the sets just seem crazy long, and sometimes have too take a two second break in the middle of them to complete. The jumprope routine is getting easier, and im actually feeling like im getting the hold on the set practice. i did 1935 jumps today alltogether, that felt pretty cool .

Also tried to find nice uplifting audiobooks (especially about people who start their own businesses or projects, and suceed at it!) I really liked Julia Child's Biography, although its about all that nice food one can not eat at the moment.

I just found it nice to hear her story about not giving up on creating the cookbook of her dreams (took her 10+ years). If any of you guys have any suggestions on any good uplifting audiobooks, they are greatly appreciated.

Oh and Im a sucker for anything old lady stuff like traveling memoirs, around europe, italy and france.

(This time just isnt right for Poe or Dostoyevsky) Oh and no Charlene Harris, her books are imho badly written, and boring(yadda yadda vampire, blood, death, a bit fighting, and a bunch of horny bloodsuckers..on constant repeat)

So quality tips please, and thank you in advance.

I guess I will just have to accnowledge my failures(and victories) this past week, and just try harder this week.

Im just so looking forward to see that this month ends, getting away from this apartment that is dirty and falling apart, where nothing works and is just a dump with paper walls.

Hearing your housemate fornicate/ or vice versa does get pretty boring after a while.

Day 51

Just got my new rubberbands to start the new week, and its really made my motivation step up a notch. It really helps having the proper equipment to do the job, but at the same time its also a bit mortifying when you discover that the old equipment really did not do its job.

Who would have thought buying some simple workoutbands would be so difficult. Amazon.com

was not very helpful, and the selection in the stores where I live is pretty no exsistant.

I finally found a internetstore that would send them to me, and now they are here.

On the otherhand here is an update picture. I don't feel as if the picture reflects the changes as well as reality.Things are defiantly more toned than what they where 50 days ago. I lost some fat around the stomach, and lost 2 kg so down to 59.8 at the moment. Really hoping that the fat on my inner thighs will soon evaporate, Ive hated that fat since I was 14,

I also feel a lot more confident and happy with myself , loving the 360 mirrors in the changing rooms when buying new clothes.

Discovered a while ago that I hate jumping rope with shoes on, but its pretty damn painful when you smack your toes with the rope. So tada, invented a new pair of socks...you could call it a prototype. The gaffertape is a really nice side effect of having photography as your chosen profession. A bad side effect is the instinct to take the above picture straight into photoshop

and liquify it straight to hell.

OK

so its been a while since last time I posted.

But I have got good news. Since last time, i feel like I have kicked my bad habits.

Dont have the same crazy craving for sugar anymore as I use to. FINALLY!

Also seems like I'm gaining control over the food plan. It does take a little while to figure out

what to bring a food for an 8 hour school day.

I have kept all doing all the exercises, only missed one day.

What happened was: was feeling pretty exhausted, so I did my jumpropes and tried to do the first exercise, but my body just would not agree with me. Otherwise thing have gone pretty smoothly. trying to observe my body, so that it is using the right mucles.

Ive been sticking to the program and I also feel like I am getting some results, but they are kind of slow. Not really lost much weight, but I´m thinking this might be because I have also gained a fair chunk of musclemass. So the body is looking better, but the fat has not yet left the building (or so it looks like). Before I weighed 62kg now im 59.5, so 1 1/2 kg. I´m hoping this will change soon. Maybe I should cut out all those avocados.

My exams are on, and it also starting to feel a bit challenging to get everything done, but I just try to push everything in.

Still in the game :)

B00BZ

OMG

My boobs have gotten bigger, and they hang better on my frame then they used to.

i think the chestexercises are the ones to thank for this.

Where there is an end there is a beginning.

Long time now since i posted something.

this week has been strange, both good and bad.

Im starting to get tired of my diet, and found myself being uninspired and bored.

Bad thing really, becouse it makes bad habits sneek up on you. Yea I have been a naughty

girl. So.. Father I have sinned. I ate a bowl of sugared popcorn, and binged in on the sweet stuff.

Gluttony,lust and frenzy.

That will be 10 sets of 20 lunges for you..you naughty girl.

*runs away screaming. Climbs up into the norwegian mountains, never to be seen again*

I also skipped two workout days, and trying to make amends I skipped last weeks "rest day".

I found a sport store that I can order the equipment that I need, as amazon.com does not want to sell me any rubber bands of any sort. The one I have now is to short, so some of the excersises are difficult to do. Really happy to see that they are not in a bad price range either.

Also since i found myself getting a bit unotivated, decided to buy one of those fancy scales, but neither amazon.com or co.uk wants to sell me any(becouse i live in norway, but sweden is for some reason ok). Thing is that a fancy weight costs around 81 to 129 dollars, and compared to the ones on amazon its pretty underwhelming. YA know if im gonna invest in some fancy bodyscanner, I want all the bells and whistles .

Probably dont need one, but i have always been curious about the body fat thing.

So to the skipping rope. We have about 5 different sport shop companys in this country, and they carry all the same stuff. I can only get hold of stayathomemom brand casall and nike. I have the nike one and it tangles to easily, so i trip all the time.

But these have all mostly been fixed, since i found this online store in norway.

I also found one fancy omron weight ridiculously priced on a webpage similar to craiglist, they had orderd quite a large number of them. Sounded a bit to good to be true, so googled their company name and they look decent.

So if you dont hear from me in two weeks time, what probably has happened is I have been put in a crate shipped of to China and forced to sell my kidney.

Now Im trying to review this week, and figure out how next week can be more fluent.

On a more personal note, a friend of mine hanged himself , leaving his 1 year old kid and wife behind. pretty sad stuff. He was a truly unique guy, had been living on and of the streets , had managed to get his life in order, pursued his photography and didnt give a f*** about what other people thought about it. And then he just killed himself.

He was also an actor and script writer

he plays the lead role in a movie called lullaby written with Margareth Olin.

the movie can be found here :

http://www.dagbladet.no/kultur/2006/12/22/486904.html

It's similar to the likes of christiane f, movies about teenagers struggling with drugs and prostitution. Not a happy go lucky movie but still one of the more interesting ones on the topic.

All sympathy to nearly beheaded finger can be given here.

At the request from Patric , I present you the aftermath of a cleaned up damaged finger.

Lesson to absorb: check that all body-parts have entered your apartment completely before slamming the door shut.

How boring! You must be thinking, as

it does not look to bad on the picture. I can promise you that it was all blue and black before the nail was punctured.

If not enough visual pain has been experiencedthrough this post, please check out this youtube video of a man doing it alpha male style with a drill. YUM!

Wow 20 days almost(in two days), Im pretty proud of myself.

Short summary:

- Done all exercises and full sets.

- Eaten almost all my meals. Getting better at this though, and more efficent managing the time it takes to cook all this food.

- Actually starting to feel I'm doing the exercise correctly , feeling the burn in the correct places etc.

- Almost no issues with eating the new diet, I've had some weak moments but i took a spoon of honey and a ritz cracker and it disappeared.

- Really annoyed by norwegian sport stores. All the shops have the same equipment from the same manufacturer and its crap. No choice whatsoever, i feel like i'm living in a soviet country.

- Did some exploring of Oslo with Max. We pinpointed oscars gate on the map and walked the whole street from beginning to end. Lots of embassies and wedding cake building, fat cats and backyard cafe's with bad taste in art. I'm thinking I might change this into my activity instead.

I also managed to smash my finger today. I'm such a clumsy geek! Had to drill a hole in it with a red hot needle to relive the pressure, more blood than I have seen in a Fellini movie. Ok I am exaggerating a bit, now the adrenaline is kicking in. Go Me!

Oh! and to all my teammates and Patric. thank you so much for supportive comments and good suggestions on equipment, it's appreciated.

Remember we are soon 20 days into this project, we have completed 1/5 of the journey, thats an accomplishment!

HURRAH MOMENTS

1. I just found out I can use a little soysauce/tamari in my food.

2. cottage cheese is ok!

4. honey, and maple syrup in small amounts. is ok too.

3. did i mention soysauce?

oh and my boyfriend gave me a hicky on my forehead...It looks like a blue triangle and its been there for three days without fading.

I've warned him that in three months time, he will have hundreds all over his face.

yes the revenge will be sweet...

DAY 10! 80 TO GO

Today has gone very well I ate all of my meals, and not much sugar or salt craving has been felt yet. Or..maybe just a little, but it all disappeared as I got the next meal into my tummy.

The exercises all went well, did the full sets and everything. The only exception was the incline pull-up, I just cant seem to be able to lift my bum of the ground. Is this normal?

I am also discovering the lack of choice norwegian sport stores have, as the resistance band I have seems to be to short at times, and there is not much other ones to choose from. Oh well, here i come amazon.com

Also found out that my digital scale is of by 200g!

No wonder I thought I would eat myself to death yesterday, solved this with getting a nice and simple no digital one.

This is my breakfast today Skimmed milk and rye bread with avocado tomato and egg, a little lime and pepper to make it a little more interesting. Is avocado ok by the way?

For lunch i had Bulgur with, squash, red onion, steamed green beans, carrot and sweet potato with chicken and thyme.

yup !

And tomorrow i will start to bake my own bread.

Day 9

So now I'm here, where we are getting some real idea of what the pcp will be for us the next 10 and a half weeks.

Since last blog post, there has happened a lot. I was stuck in Berlin because of the angry Volcano,

so me and my mother had to travel home by train and ferry. This took two days, and did make the project a little more difficult to do. I missed two days

of exercising as we travelled all day, and it was unfortunately to late to do any exercising. I did notice though that the last two days before leaving, my body was starting to feel quite exhausted. So for once i did the minimum amount of every exercise, but still did them! I suppose this must be an effect of the half diet. I didn't even think I was that good at halving down the meals. Compared to what Im eating now it was nothing.

Anyways I'm home now and back in the routine.

Struggling a little with finding the perfect jump rope. Otherwise I'm getting things done, and strangely enough I'm still enjoying it! Even if its tough. The awesomeness of getting into the shower after a solid workout is niiiiiceee, almost slightly religious.

It's so nice to be home though, really missed the little shop around the corner.

So back to the

new meal plan.

O-H M-Y G-O-D

Will I really be able to stuff all of that into my belly?

This is only some of what ive eaten today, there is more......

Not the most nice looking, awesome stuff but I guess my cooking skills will improve a lot.

Or so I hope.

Had a little bit to much fruit today, oh well.

Day2 and 3 the glorified memories of sweetness

Im over my flu and actually enjoying the workouts very much, I find myself doing an extra set or two just for fun (is there something wrong with me, have I become a sadomasochist?). On the other hand I can really feel it in my legs and arms the day after, suppose that is a good sign? My arms are two weak to do a proper pushup yet, still on the knees. On a general note I just hope I'm doing all the excerizes correctly.

I'm also walking alot around town. Berlin is pretty big so there is a lot to see, and so much more fun to just walk than take the u/s bahn. When i get home I'm thinking of putting a big map over Oslo. then i will just close my eyes and throw a dart, then I will explore that area. maybe I could do this into a weekly activity.

Food: it's a little bit difficult to control the food atm, I try to take the smaller or healthier options instead. Today I did splurge a bit, I had an enormous craving for chocolate cake ( you hit the mark Patric in your last e-mail) and i succumbed into the gloriousness that is chocolate cake. Or so I thought......The strange thing is that the brain really glorifies the whole experience, before it has happened. After the first bite, I was a bit dissapointed. It just was not

as marvolous as I had thought it would be to indulge.

Dear Brain

You are such a deluded thing.

Stop playing tricks on me.

Best Regards

Hugs and kisses

-Maren (your master)

1st day - a bit unlucky

At the moment I'm in Berlin hanging out with my mom for a short week, and it has been lovely.

I've had a bit of Murphys Law checking in on me, with the flu in my system, and a freakin angry volcano on Iceland that might hinder my journey home on saturday.

I have only done a small portion of the excersies, my body is feeling weak and not to alive at the moment. On the meals: I have cut it to half with no issues. It really helps meeting a poor old homeless guy with gangrene in his leg stinking up the whole cart. Death really kills the appetite.

Also done 15 min of meditation, reflecting on the stress i feel, just trying to feel the feeling without judging it or trying to make it go away.

On a lighter note I bought a pretty nice skipping rope, and I really want to get jumping soooon!

Pointing my thumbs up for tomorrow.

It's On!

This is where Maren's going to get Peaky!